Day 1

Well, weigh-in this morning was 217.2 - not bad. Logging food was not too bad, but I forgot to take my lunch (which she'd told me to do), so I'm starting the week with a lost point. Thank goodness she hasn't taken away my porn, or I wouldn't be able to enjoy this wonderful Bianca Beauchamp portrait.

These posts are probably going to be pretty boring except on the weekends, so my next update will probably be towards the end of the week.

Negotiations and Love Songs

Tomorrow it begins. After some back and forth, I have 4 directives:

1. Track my food intake and ALWAYS do what I'm told if she tells me what (or what not) to eat.
2. Weigh in each morning
3. Walk 5 miles a day
4. Participate with her in an exercise of her choosing once a day

These are on weekdays. On weekends, all the above applies, PLUS I have to do one "Honey Do" activity (like clean out the garage or work on something around the house). Weekends are also flexible where she'll decide if we're just doing something completely different.

All of this is mandatory. Each time I miss something, I loose a point for the current week.

The overall goal is to loose 2 pounds a week. The scale software shows trend lines, so she can see if I'm on that trend (2 pounds a week), even if my weight jumps up and down each day (which it always does). IF I am on (or beating) the trend at the end of each week, she will release me from chastity for the night.

Now comes the tricky part: if I've lost any points, then I am not allowed to come for 4 hours for each point. No guarantees on time she lets me out. No guarantees for when I have to go back in the next morning. So. When I'm let out, we will be having sex - but if I've lost points, then I won't be cumming, at least not right away. She said that if my penalties run out before it's time to go back into chastity, then I will be allowed to masturbate in order to get soft again. But if not, well... tough.

I ended up ordering a CB 6000, which should come in the next week. Until then, I just have to pretend - no touching, no masturbating. If I do, then she's done - the game is over.

Deep breathing. The initial weigh-in is tomorrow morning.

A New Beginning

So - it's been a couple weeks & no takers. My wife and I sat down tonight & had a long discussion about weight loss, motivation, and sex. Both of us agreeing that these things were hard, harder, and fun (in that order). And after a lot of negotiation, she has agreed to be my weight loss mistress. She's not the inventive type, so in lieu of her having all the responsibility of planning and in charge of "excitement" (which I was willing to pay someone for), she's agreed to use a chastity device for the duration.

I have to figure out what to get. I have to learn how to wear it. I have to come up with the reward/punishment plan. She will tweak the plan at her discretion. She will hold the key when I'm ready to stay locked up on her whim. She will deny me, but not actively tease me (though I suspect this may change over time). It's not going to be about me and what I want.

Regardless of having a chastity cage, the program starts on Monday, so I have little time to plan. I am not to masturbate after tomorrow. All sexual relief will be accomplished through intercourse when she unlocks me for sex, probably when I achieve certain goals (which she has to approve). We've agreed that the main goal is to get me down to 190 lbs., with a side goal of better muscle mass and possibly stretching it to 180 lbs., depending on how things are going when I hit 190.

Wow. Said it before - be careful what you wish for. Now to figure out what cage to get... Sex shops around here don't carry them "on the shelf" (this is true most places, I've discovered), so I'll need to order one. Wow

Day 0 - Another 90 days?

So I've had zero luck in finding an avenue to contact Lady Sin. I see in a post near the end of the 60 days that I wondered how long it would take to start craving control again. About 17 months :)

So I'm now looking for someone, amateur or professional, to be my femdom weight loss mistress. It's a part time position :), and I'm willing to pay a weekly or monthly fee via bitcoin. If you are interested, please use the contact form on this page to send me a message. I would expect to take a little time to communicate and plan before beginning.

On the surface, it's pretty simple: I'm currently at about 6 foot 1 inch & 218 lbs. My immediate goal is to get under 200 lbs, with a possible stretch goal of getting to 190 lbs. At the same time, I want to rebuild some muscle and increase my aerobic processing. My main issue (of not being able to do this on my own) is motivation.

I'm not sure what I'm expecting as far as the femdom experience. Well, maybe I do: excitement.  I'm looking for a woman that loves controlling a man (from the anonymous shadows); someone inventive and creative - sensual, adaptable, and communicative. Someone who is willing to work with me, combining her ideas with my goals, fantasies, and limits to keep me highly motivated.  I do have limits, some soft, some hard, which I will be happy to elaborate on (even in this blog) if asked. I would expect any woman taking this project on to have high expectations of me.

Communication would be through anonymous email and I will blog about the entire experience (unless told to keep something confidential). I might consider occasional chat, or even vchat, as long as we do it in a way that guarantees anonymity. I can create an anonymous account to hook in my fitness tracker and wireless scale to (and food log, to boot) that could be used for monitoring my progress. Pay is negotiable and anonymous through bitcoin. Have I said "anonymous" enough yet?

You don't have to have done this before, so if you are interested, create an anonymous email account and contact me through the contact form on this page. If you have questions you'd like me answer on the blog, please post an anonymous comment.

10/12/2015 - A new beginning

Sadly, I've discovered that yourorgasmismine is no longer active. Last summer, my plans fell through to enter into another session with Lady Sin. We had briefly discussed a true weight loss oriented domination, but real life interrupted. Only now, when I'm at a point where I could make it work (and really need it), I find out the option isn't available.

I'm posting this in the hope that Lady Sin had signed up for email notices on blog updates. If you are reading this, I would like to discuss working with you privately, using bitcoin. My email address from our previous sessions is still active & I have sent you a message at the email address you set up back then.

If you no longer have access to that, please message me here