Has it already been 4 days? I seem to be in this weird time distortion where everything seems to be going faster than my perception. I've realize that I've already started counting the days until this experience is over - and I dread that end - I want it to continue forever.A few things I've internalize today:
1) Sex fetishes take planning - you have to be willing to plan them out (some would say part of the fun is planning them out) to get what you want out of them. I've always known this, intellectually, but forgotten about it at an emotional level. And lately I'm all emotion. I don't want the responsibility of planning, but I've entered into an agreement that requires it (at least at some level).
2) How can I possibly have missed this delicious photo of Bianca Beauchamp? Stumbled across it today. I must not be looking hard enough. Another sign that, although I'm hard in, um, 'other' places (constantly), my mind is not in charge right now.
3) I want a woman to mold me, to control me, to demand my obedience, to command me, to shape my thinking. I want her to tease me, torture me, fill me with desire and use it against me - to draw me deeper and deeper into complete, total, utter devotion. That's not too much to ask, is it?4) Looking back through the images I've accumulated over the last 5 weeks, I realized that red and black are my colors of choice.
5) Today is six weeks since my last explosive, satisfying orgasm.
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