Needy. High maintenance. I think these things describe me, at least when it comes to sex. I think I top from the bottom & it gets very frustrating when I force myself not to. To be completely controlled is a feeling that alternates between blissful (when under active control) and maddeningly frustrating - angry, even, when I'm on my own.
For instance, this morning: I was so sexually frustrated after last night. I had immersive, highly charged sexual dreams in which I was unable to cum. I woke up sobbing once, the echos of begging for release caught in my throat. This morning I grabbed my hard cock in the shower, hand full of slippery body wash, and it took me a moment to realize that I had to stop.
AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish I had a full time Mistress who could be there all the time, constantly reminding me of what I was allowed (and not allowed) to do. Who would lock me up, but tease me often, allowing me to cum only on her random schedule. Who would constantly push my boundaries and experiment. Who would talk dirty to me and dress up to sexually excite me.
I know....
I'm Needy
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