Sorry, got off on a stream of consciousness ramble there. Where was I? Oh yeah - sex. Or lack thereof. I guess that's not a fair statement - I'm still getting a fair amount of sex, I'm just not getting any gratification from it. I'm more than happy to do anything for my wife & if she wants to use me as her sex toy, I gladly to submit to her. And seriously - what was I expecting? It really is the only logical conclusion when I chose to do this experience with Lady Sin. Well, I suppose my wife could have completely shut me out - just used her actual toys for the entire two months and completely ignored me. So, in a way, I should be glad that we're (hmm, may that should be "she's") having sex. If I'm thinking in a purely submissive way, I'm grateful that she continues to use me for her pleasure.
Lady Sin, on the other hand, is still kind of a mystery to me. I don't understand the purpose of being butt plugged last session - I get the feeling that she may be testing my boundaries, trying to figure out what I will and won't do - what I do and don't like. Maybe. I'll probably never know for sure. I am beginning to think she is a devious woman. Last night she asked me if I could obtain a pair of stiletto heels. My wife has a pair and I sent Lady Sin a picture of them. Lady Sin said they were perfect. 
Hmmm. I hope she doesn't think I can wear them, because they're way to small. So that leaves many painful possibilities swimming through my head. Wait and see - that's become my mantra.All I know for sure is that I'm anxiously waiting to hear from Lady Sin - hoping that she will let me stimulate myself soon. Whenever I'm not focused on something else, my mind wanders to her, my cock gets hard, and my ache for sex swells. I want desperately for her to grant me my next session - to allow me to feel some pleasure. Good God - it's only the middle of the second week.
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