Day 16 - 4/5/2014 8:57 AM

It's hard to believe that 2 weeks have gone by already. Remember near the beginning where I talked about losing weight? It's working - I'm down 8 pounds since then. The trick was to treat my desire to eat (outside of meals) just like my desire for sex. And to treat each meal just like a tease - eat enough to sustain, then cut myself off.

For almost two weeks, the hunger would gnaw at my stomach, constantly reminding me how much I wanted food. Each time I ate, it would abate for a while, then return. But recently, it hasn't abated after a meal - even when I have a larger meal (as I did two days ago). It was then that I realized that the aching, gnawing, driving need I was feeling was not just hunger - it was the undercurrent of my horny aching need for sex. Damn.

It's a good thing my wife is ignoring my needs right now, because I want to fuck her soooooooo bad. I've reached a tipping point where I will do anything for her, just on the hope that she will use me for sex. But it appears I've been cut off for now - I woke in the middle of the night last night to the sound of a vibrator and her heavy breathing. I moved to 'help', and she pushed me away, hoarsely whispering "NO!" - making it clear I could watch, but not touch.

Oh My God I have never wanted her so bad. I laid there, cock raging hard, unable to do anything except watch and listen. When she was done, she snuggled up to me. I was whimpering, aching for her. "This is what you wanted, right?" she asked me. "I didn't know it would be this hard" I whined back. "Well, you should be careful what you wish for" she replied, echoing the words of Sarah Jameson from way back when we first started talking about denial last year.

I've learned, over the last couple nights, how to sleep with a hard, horny cock. You know how you half-wake up several times a night, turning to a new position and falling back asleep before you even realize you're awake? Imagine that, except every time you wake up you are hard, charged, and ready to go. And you wake up enough every time to realize that you're being denied and have to just go back to sleep. It's enough to make you desperate.

And speaking of desperate, I have not heard from Lady Sin since she reviewed my after-tease report (and pictures) and told me how glad she was that I was starting to be horny 24/7. That was only 24 hours ago, but it seems like days - maybe a week. I'm pretty much at the point with her, too, where I want to do anything, just to get my next tease. It seems rather pathetic, but that's where I am right now.

Still enjoying this ride 1000%