I sent a message asking about 2 months - I figured that if it was too expensive, I would scale back to 1 month. Based on my previous experiences with tease & denial, I didn't think 1 or 2 weeks was going to cut it for me. Lady Sin was gracious and made me feel like she was excited to be able to do this for me. She warned me that I should really consider what I was setting myself up for. The price was reasonable, so I agreed to it.
Lady Sin then asked me a few probing questions, I asked questions back, and my floodgates opened. I'm sure I dumped way more than she expected, but she has only made me feel good about everything I say. She dropped several hints during our back-and-forth messaging about what was to come (hint: not cumming), which pretty much either turned me to goo, or got me instantly, uncomfortably hard.
The basic terms of the next 2 months? One or two custom teases per week, timed to her whims. One or two orgasms for the entire period - only when she orders it. No touching myself unless told to do so (I'm not sure if this only applies to my cock, or includes all forms of arousal, including nipple stimulation). Follow her instructions explicitly from start to finish.
She let me know this afternoon that she was ready, and I paid the first month fee to officially start the clock. I was kind of stupid and had not had an orgasm for about four days before starting. I decided, though, that she would appreciate me starting out 'primed', so I refrained. The message I received after starting the clock was breathtaking, starting with: "Understand you are totally in my control now." I've been continuously hard since receiving that message 9 1/2 hours ago.
Lady Sin gave me my first tease only an hour and a half later, with a time frame to complete of 3 days. But I was so excited I could not wait for later in the weekend, and I performed the tease this evening. OMG it was awesome. Just the right amount of stroking, edging and wordplay to keep me both excited and worried about my future under her control :) Although this tease was fairly easy for me, I can see how this same tease could be extremely difficult after weeks of denial. The tease ended far sooner than I wished, but I've given her creative control over our entire session, so I've got nothing to complain about.
I realized after I had time to calm down that I wanted to blog this experience, even if I'm the only one who ever reads it. So I sit here, wondering when I will next hear from her. Hoping it will be soon. It's been a couple hours since I performed the tease & the enormity of this commitment is weighing on me. I know I can do it, but it will sorely test my willpower. I doubt I will sleep tonight. This is awesome.
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