Day 9 - 3/29/2014 9:00am

I've never worn a true chastity device, though I'd like to get one someday. We have a cock cage - a leather and steel cage that works similar to chastity devices, but is for play only, it's easy to get out of  without unlocking the lock, and the steel isn't polished enough & it creates sores on my cock when worn for more than a couple hours. But as a toy during sex games, it fills the need.

On one hand, the idea of putting a real chastity device on is just scary. Mostly about comfort - I have an above-average cock length, ~8.5 in, and my balls are average, but they are usually tight against my body). My balls have pulled through rings around them in the past & that's extremely painful. There's also exposure - can people tell something is 'off' down there? And I get hard a lot - several times a day - and I enjoy it; if my body adjusts to not being able to become hard, will I lose that when I'm not locked up?

And then (on the other hand) there's the aspect of being completely, utterly out of control and dependent on another. That's something that both terrifies me and thrills me. One of the first things Lady Sin asked me about was if I had a chastity device. Because I do not, I have to maintain my control for this entire two months. Right now, maintaining that control is easy, because my enjoyment of the experience is more than my desperation to cum. So, in one respect I have to have control through this entire time. The longest I've ever gone without orgasm is about 5 weeks - and that was with the help of hypnosis. Lady Sin said to me recently that I may feel like I still have control now, but that's going to change drastically in the weeks to come. I'm determined not to let her down.

So today I'm heading to perhaps the second best venue for a breast & corset lover - a renaissance festival. Should be fun ;)

Looking forward to lots of this :)