Day 14 - 4/3/2014 7:50 PM

It's amazing how fleeting pleasurable experiences are. This pretty much applies to everything. That 2 week vacation in Italy? Feels awesome at the beginning. Fun during. By the end, it's a mix of "I'm tired and I want to go home" and "Is it over already?". Then you're home, and before you know it, it's just a memory that you want to relive. That's what it's like in this experience with Lady Sin.

I want the teases. I love the teases. If I could do an entire day of them, day after day, I would. But once they're over, it takes no time at all to feel like "did it really happen?". I already feel like days have passed since this afternoon. I need another one NOW. Doesn't she know my cock is aching for release?!?

And here's the thing: it's been 18 days since my last orgasm. The longest I've ever gone between orgasms is about 43 days, so I'm not even half way to that point yet. But that time, I was aided in abstaining by hypnosis. This time, not only do I not have any help, I think it's being used for the opposite purpose.

And truthfully, I want Lady Sin to deny me - possibly longer than I currently think possible. But I agreed in the beginning that I would be under her control, to orgasm (or not) at her whim. And to not know or influence the timing (or the process) in any way. So far, she's been generous with me, slowly testing my limits and control. I don't know if it will stay that way or not, but I do know that I'm happy, excited, and grateful every time I hear from her. I hang on every email chime from my phone, checking to see if it's her. Disappointed when it's not.

I'm having a great time. I can only think of one thing that would improve this experience, but it's not an option for me. That would to be actually locked in chastity, with the key held in an electronic safe that Lady Sin controls. If I were single, I would definitely do this - maybe. But for now it just has to remain a fantasy.





On a final note: My wife handed me a USB stick this evening to upload to my mp3 player. She says she's perfected the session and wants me to listen to it every night for the next week. She teased me saying that once I was fully conditioned, she might make me share the trigger words with Lady Sin.
Hmmm, now there's a dangerous idea. But I think that if Lady Sin wanted to use hypnosis with me, I would probably allow it, because even when you go as deep as I do, you can't do things that cross your hard boundaries unless you want to. No Expectations.

So now I'm just waiting - again.